Friday, April 29, 2005
okay, damn bored.
blogging again.
waiting for sanny to appear.
feels wierd not to see her in the morning.
shall blog till 930 then go and mug for law.
so anyway, wo hui blog in hua wen.
hao bu hao?
actually, shi ying wei wo yao bitch about na ge er luo si guy.
ta is sitting zai wo de pang bian.
eeyer, zhen shi de.
guai ren.
wo zhen de bu ke yi stand ta okay
hen ugly, you zhe me guai.
yuck man.
then ta hen autistic de lor.
if you ren using dian nao right, then zuo kai a bit to do something, then ta hui use na ge dian nao. then then when the ren comes and kao shu ta shi ta men de dian nao, then ta hui scold na ge ren.
you know?
okay, if you could get that, i applaud you.
because even when i read it, i have no idea what i am saying.
ha ha ha.
wo de peng you thinks its very funny ying wei ta zhi dao ta xing huan te girl shi ge les.
then ta ye asked ling wai yi ge girl and ta ye shi les.
shuo yi, wo think it's really funny.
:D
ta wan le.
yao turn gay le!
:D
-
hur hur, good mood.
was trudging up to school when i heard some random car blasting bsb.
quit playin' games.
(:
small things like that can really brighten up my days.
and i'm regretting again that i didn't mug hard enough for law again.
haii, every goddamn week it's the same thing.
get into a panic attack and then mug like the world's gonna end.
stress, man.
she: But we didn't bring anything to sleep in.
he: Oh, but we did. I don't know about you, but i plan to sleep in your arms. You're welcome to sleep in mine.
awhhhh.
(:
i love johanna lindsey.
i love cheesy cliched lines.
:D
such a vacumn cleaner for them.
ha ha.
-
baaad day today.
woke up in the doldrums.
ah ):
i just don't understand the way my mind works.
how come i can wake up one day and all's fine with the world,
and then the next day, i'm feelin' like crap?
gaaaaah.
i should really start studying.
and stop eating.
looked closely in the mirror yesterday.
and all i saw was blubber.
and more blubber.
and even more blubber.
!!!
or, as my dad loves to say: a mass of protoplasm.
(i figure that means the human version of cytoplasm. quite icky, yes)
-wails.
and i've just realised that school is actually quite interesting.
but i never blog about anything that happens.
therefore, my blog is crap.
ha ha ha.
oh well, oh well.
yesterday when i was mugging for accounting in the comp lab, this black guy just suddenly started playing music damn loud.
and then my friend sid msn-ed me and went, " stupid or lang music."
which i thought was simply hilarious.
i don't know why.
hee :D
maybe it's because that was hokkien.
and sid's indian.
-laughs.
okay, that was a random thought.
i keep having random thoughts, you know.
it's so wierd how many random things can occur to me every second of my life.
it's like one moment i'm dying over accounting,
and the next i can suddenly think of some cheesy cliched line that j loves to spout like EVERYDAY.
or like, i can just be looking at the trees and flowers and suddenly think of jos and all her .. lustful thoughts.
get what i mean?
so odd.
okay, like my brother is totally growing at superhuman speed.
at this rate, i'm really gonna lose that fifty bucks to him.
shit maaaan.
ooh, i suddenly thought of kyle.
as in, totally kyle amanda show nickelodean.
kyle is so cute!
(:
hee hee, another random thought.
the way my mind works is like, SO WIERD.
okay, my eyes feel funny.
think that maybe i'm gonna get sore eyes.
ah sadness.
some one is playing spice girls.
makes me think of '97.
ah, those were the days man.
actually, no.
'97 was one of the worse years of my life.
if i ever see florence lim again, i will personally slit her throat.
that bitch said i needed counselling just cos' i didn't like doing her goddamn maths homework.
plus she was the worse health ed teacher i've ever had.
i mean, what bloody teacher giggles for 5 full minutes before she blushingly says to the class that women bloody hell have to wear a bloody bra or their bloody chest will sag.
i mean like, GO BACK TO KINDERGARTEN HONEY.
oh, and she thought giving me stickers would win me over.
HAH, think again woman.
-snarls.
cannot stand even the mere thought of her.
if i could go back to that year, i would've told her straight out that no, i didn't need a fucking child psychiatrist.
it was she who needed to get fucked.
bad.
and get that prickly cactus out of her fat arse.
my only comfort is that my dad about told her that.
albeit in a slightly more polite way.
but only slightly.
that was good.
sometimes, my dad is so lovable.
oh, another random thought.
once when my cousin was in p2, his maths teacher pissed him off because of god knows what.
and the clash got very bad.
and they all ended up at the principal's office.
and the teacher provoked my cousin so much he told that if she couldn't even count properly, then she might as well go and be a prostitute.
that, i quote verbatim.
i don't even like my cousin that much,
but i thought that was pretty cool.
innit?
(:
god, i really am in a bad mood today.
i just feel so bitchy.
rarr.
-
okay i'm blogging again because i just want to whine.
why, why, why can't i blog intelligently?
as in, WHY?
why the hell can't i just look at friggin' losers and think philosophical thoughts about how they buck the trend of humankind's seemingly intrinsic need for social acceptance?!
WHY, MAN?
-sulks.
and like, why can't i look at rain and instead of thinking, " OOH, cosy! :D ",
think about the lovely gifts of mother nature and how unfathomnable the sublime beauty of nature is.
why?
-grouches.
why is it that i can never sound like a bleedin' intellect?
i mean, i don't even sound like a bleedin'
pseudo intellect, do i?
DO I?
i don't!
-whines.
i wish i thought out of the box, dammit.
i wish i looked at ordinary things and have extraordinary thoughts ):
and that i could philosophize so much about every single thing that when i go home and think of the things i've said, i can say to myself, " damn! you're a smart bastard, aren't you?" and then proceed to bask in my own self given glow of proudness because i know (and i am) better than everybody else because i just know more.
must've been nice to be albert einstein.
knowing that no normal human being in the world understands your theory on relativity.
i mean, shit.
must've felt really good knowing that if someone could truthfully say, "hey, that relativity theory of yours is some good shit!"
then you could also truthfully congratulate that person for being a certified genius because they could understand your theory.
which would then once again prove that you are so freakin' smart.
DANG.
now, i want to be that man with the poofy white hair.
i'll even brave perpetual bad hair days for that brain.
):
okay, no more.
i'm done with my whining.
-
ahh, jos and j just left.
so i'll be alone for the next 45mins while they have law.
ayee ):
pretty normal day.
pretty normal break.
same old, same old.
ho hum.
the guys were horsing around,
calling some girl E.T,
playing with fire (which was pretty cool),
setting themselves on fire (which was pretty cool too).
what else, what else.
ha ha ha, i thought of how phoon and i set some china hotel room on fire.
was pretty bad, that.
smoke alarm rang and lin came to yell at phoon.
-giggles.
sometimes i wonder where we got all our guts.
stupidity, i'm thinking.
ha ha.
oh, and phoon?
i'll never forget how we used those paper slippers and stuck them at the top of the mirror to make them look like bunny ears.
one of those things i'm definitely gonna tell my grandkids.
:D
weather's getting all dark again.
ooh (:
i love rain.
puts me in a good mood.
and josephine is getting into a waay extreme emotional rollercoaster over him.
aiyaaaa, sucks that he's got a girlfriend.
was v v funny that day.
was relating how his mom caught him having sex on the sofa and he got kicked out of the house.
tickled me funny bones, it did.
:D
oh, and so now jos is convinced that she should get herself to stop liking him.
and j dreamt of random chem classmate boy last night in aforementioned sweet dream.
so now she's languishing in crushland too.
ha ha ha.
i love it when my friends fall in love.
that is, to other people.
not to each other.
though i wouldn't mind that either.
(:
just that currently, all my friends are girls.
oh sha la la la.
-sings.
jos is wondering when's my turn gonna come.
now get this, friend.
NEVERRR!
never never never.
i know so.
(:
-
hur hur.
shit man, my stats are lousy.
(:
still feelin' purty today.
must be the rain last night.
fell asleep feelin everything was GOOOD.
ha ha ha.
still got accounting test.
which marrs the mood abit.
but oh well. (:
j just came in and started reciting her odd sweet dream last night.
i swear the girl is like the handbook of cliched lines.
SO CUTE.
okay, i just saw this damn pretty russian girl.
and for some very very wierd reason, i noticed that her cleavage looks really nice.
shit.
i'm turning into a man.
):
oh yay, i'm actually feeling pretty good today (:
i think it's got something to do with the weather.
there's just something about rainy days that make me feel so gooood.
:D
oh maan, i think j is such a sweetie.
-beams.
GO FOR IT J, GO FOR IT!
I SUPPORT YOU.
(:
like watching an idol drama.
everybody, cue to go AWWHHH.
wa, i'm feeling damn hyper.
-sings.
still got accounting to do.
and loads of homework to straighten up.
but OH WELL.
i am feeling mighty happy.
j's mood is infectious!
i am feeling love for everybody now!
OOH.
(: (: (:
okay and my sister just said that yellow house cheer is actually not bad.
haa, but blue is better.
my sister is so in love with jack.
had really funny conversation with jos last night,
then had random thought about something j said about someone.
then had a huge surge of love towards j because she is so full of cliched lines.
but man, aren't we all suckers for that?
(:
ha ha, i think j and someone would be so sweet tgt.
okaaay, nevermind.
shouldn't say too much.
IM STILL FEELING HYPER.
-bounces around.
okay, this entry makes no sense.
!!
YAY, I JUST FEEL DAMN HYPER.
:D
i am feeling nostalgic.
i wonder why didn't we take more photos of each other when we were in primary school?
i mean, we were in the same class from p4 weren't we?
what a bleedin' waste of time.
i only remember haveing neos taken with phoon in p6.
which means i'll really have to go back to singapore, dig them up and have a gander at them.
makes for good rememberance.
(:
phoon, we should meet again, okay?
take an aged 17 one.
we already have an aged 11 and an aged 14
meaning neos of just two of us.
blah, why didn't we take more pictures?
):
we should really take more for posterity, you know.
i think it's quite funny.
how your hair got shorter and shorter.
and mine got longer and longer.
-laughs.
okay, this is wierd.
i am suddenly talking to phoon on my blog.
ha ha.
nevermind
and i just got a huge heart attack when i saw josephine's photos just now.
ahh, they.
all their wildness.
me ol' heart ain't takin' it as well as it used to.
-shakes head.
my utmost sympathies, friends.
-solemn.
ah! charlotte is showing me pictures of her school.
it is bright and yellow.
i will have to give it a visit when i come back.
(:
speaking of which, i am 8 weeks away from coming back.
joy!
i can't wait to watch scv again.
believe it or not, i've not watched tv since i came here.
such a deprived kid, i am.
my sister is suaning me now.
because she is 166cms tall and i am 162cms.
life is unfair.
-snarls.
i am looking for the pictures the rest are supposed to have uploaded.
but i can't find any.
so oh well.
i give up.
(:
so anywayyy, i am screwed for econs.
AGAIN.
yesterday, j popped by my house.
gave me a surprise, that did.
and then she made herself very useful and vacumned my room for me.
good.
she should pop by my house more often.
:D
and then she told me what they did earlier on when they were at jos's house.
eeyer.
hanky-pankying around, all of them.
thank god i decided on a whim not to go.
i am good.
i am saintly.
(:
actually, scratch that.
i am not just good.
i am bloody sanctimonious.
ha ha ha,
i can almost see the glow of goodness enveloping me.
:D
ahh, bored again.
WHERE ARE THOSE PICTURES, DAMMIT?!
yesterday was bleedin' fun (:
as in, okay.
eventful, more like.
let me first rant about kenta.
HE IS SO CUTE!
:D
and j wanted to act bung again and spike her hair but her cannot make it hair was too long it just flopped down.
and just when i was just about to snip her hair, kenta and waheed arrived with hq and jos.
and j sneaked the guys in when her host was on the phone in the garden.
ha ha ha.
ooh, and then kenta that talented kid started cutting j's hair.
and we all agreed that MAN, HE'S GOOD.
looked damn professional.
ha ha.
i developed a new respect for him.
okay, i'm getting bored with the subject of j's hair.
but anyway, under kenta's expert hands, it turned out very nice.
then the other guys came and jos began her transformation into a goth girl.
waa, damn cool lah.
i also want.
but jos was damn freaked out with her own reflection.
i still thought she looked pretty cool anyway.
the guys just looked disturbing.
waaaay disturbing.
):
was fuckin annoying though.
when we were walking back to school,
this bunch of white trash hooligans started jeering like the low class blue collared uneducated white trailer trash they were.
and yeah, it was actually quite an experience.
the whole time, i kept thinking about 'beautiful'by christina aguilera.
it just suddenly made a whole lot of sense.
and geoff actually told jos when they first walked out that if they get beaten, don't be surprised.
so when those animals started howling everybody got quite cautious.
and geoff made everybody walk in front of him.
so if anybody kenna, its him.
i think geoff's nice, you know.
-stares at j.
were late for IE.
all the food was gone.
shit.
):
saw all the hot girls in their trad costumes.
AHH, THEN RIE AND KENTA CAME ON STAGE AND THEY LOOKED SO GOOD.
everybody was dying over kenta cos he was wearing a tailored jacket and he just looked phenomenal.
okay, this entry shall mostly be spent on kenta because he is cute.
ha ha ha.
but anyway, j is damn useless.
she drank a bottle of reef and she got tipsy and mad.
laughing and running like a dog all over the place.
madness.
then there was this really stupid moment where j was actually giggling somewhere and everybody decided to just leave her be.
and then suddenly, she disappeared.
and everybody got so alarmed and started yelling for her.
then suddenly, she appeared at the bottom of the slope and cheered very happily at us.
it was like, oh my god. she is really drunk.
so comical
haha.
and jos continued to be damn freaked out by herself throughout the night.
and geoff and omar left early so she was the only goth left to fend for herself.
which, when you think about it, is quite unfair.
since she isnt even actually a goth.
and she would at times forget about her makeup and go running around madly like j with her hood down.
and it'll be like, jos jos! calm down. cover your face.
ha ha ha.
(:
then we all went for supper at this mexican place.
and kenta was so cute.
that's pretty much the main thing.
kenta is so full of x-factor.
everyone of us is charmed by him.
-beams.
aye, too bad he is only just 16.
okay, i've lost my train of thought.
hmm, where was i?
so then anyway, they all left and we were walking very cautiously home when suddenly the whole bunch of singaporeans/malaysians.
and we drank a bit with them
and got sid, his housemate and joseph to walk us home so that just in case jos gets targetted, they can block the attackers while we run away.
(:
oh and woe.
j's got some very embarrassing pictures of me
): shit.
nevermind. i think jos looked damn cool even though she stil is freaked out by her reflection.
and im bored with this already.
so off i go.
god, i hate recounting incidences.
okay i am so bored i am just gonna blog again.
haha.
anyway, i just realised that yellow house is leading.
YAY.
we rock, we rule.
not that i actually ever cared much.
but oh well, 10 years have gotta cause some feelings to develope.
(:
i heard yellow house cheer sucks though.
ah well, not every year can be a victory.
ha ha.
oh, and jos is still being damn cute about her guy.
haha, its damn cute cos she's dying over him
and he looks damn like a terrorist.
even his heritage is damn terrorist lah.
what a difference from kian westlife.
(:
i bet if everyone else had a look at josephine's sexy beast,
they'll get a shock cos AHAHAHA.
he really is a sexy beast.
as in literally.
-beams.
i am not making much sense am i?
(:
and for him, jos is becoming a girl goth.
the first happy goth the world has even known!
-giggles.
can't wait for friday man.
to see jos gothic.
:D
omg, i'm in the comp lab with jos now and she is so happy she is like vibrating on a higher frequency.
ITS SO CUTE!
-squeals.
haha, now after that little incident in the canteen she is like damn hyper.
so cute so cute so cute.
oh god i am not making sense anymore.
josephine brightens up my life.
she reminds me of bri.
haa, only madder.
phoon, haha, sorry i had to leave so fast.
call me okay.
or come online.
or mail me.
anything.
(:
so anyway, its damn wierd that im blogging about jos now.
but shit, i really think its damn funny lah.
ahh, love.
such an interesting thing.
:D
ha ha, i love josephine.
she brightens up my day.
oh, she amuses me so.
and i keep having giggle fits thinking of her and all her crazy ideas.
all in all,
life's been peachy.
especially now that karma has decided to leave me in peace
-beams
I AM INVINCIBLE!
ha ha ha ha.
even karma can't get me down.
:D
okay, should not be so smug.
just in case karma decides to have another taste of my sad arse.
you know, just to teach me a lesson.
ha ha.
Dear Karma, if you HAVE to chomp on me again,
please just be gentle.
):
that sounded a bit sick.
-laughs.
oh, I FEEL JOLLY!
:D
like santa claus.
or the laughing buddha.
and i'm about just as fat too.
ha ha.
i amuse myself too much sometimes.
(:
and i don't even know what i do that makes me think it's so funny.
i even think my karmic retribution is quite funny now.
or at least how i griped non stop about it to myself is funny.
actually, hmm.
the whole thing was pretty funny, now that the trauma has worn off.
i bet everybody will think it's quite silly too.
that is, if they know what happen.
which they won't.
because ..
I WANT TO KEEP AN AIR OF MYSTERY AROUND ME.
(:
-cackles merrily.
oh i am so lame, i need a wheelchair.
:D
man, i am so tired.
):
yesterday, i had it all figured out.
all those things happenin' to me?
that's KARMA.
and the funny thing was, when i was busily being evil,
i even said, "waa, better do some more good deeds or karma will bite me in the arse."
well, it really got a good chomp, dinnit?
ahh well, as of last night, i am almost recovered (:
i'm still trying to figure out the the wisdom of how i resolved it though.
hmm.
AIYA. clare, all your fault lah.
-glares.
i'd still better do some more good deeds just in case.
yeahh.
oh gaawwwd. the econs test was disastrous.
i feel gah.
):
brilliant way to start off a brilliant day.
argh.
clare, i need you.
COME ONLINE!
the silly cat hopped onto my bed last night and refused to get off.
i tried to smack it like my hostess told me to.
but it refused.
then i tried to carry it off and it dug its nails into my duvet.
and it kept rubbing its head on my hand.
ha ha.
i bet it likes me.
but then i got a bit freaked cos josephine put the idea in my head that my room might be dirty.
as in you know ... dirty.
eeyer.
and i suddenly thought of christopher pike's spookesville and how this girl got turned into a cat by a cat that leapt on her bed at night.
and i was convinced that it was my last night as a human being.
but oh well, here i am still.
am suddenly wishing i had been turned into a damn cat though.
oh ive decided i wont go for the LSE openday tomorrow.
i have to stay for accounting.
yeahh.
i am a geek, no?
(:
i wonder what is wrong with me ):
i don't have an appetite at all.
(no clare, if you've read my mail, its not cos of THAT)
so annoying.
actually, maybe its a blessing in disguise.
spend less money and lose weight.
ha ha.
justin timberlake's senorita is revolving in my head.
ha ha.
catchy.
"it feels like something's heatin' up, can i leave with you?
i don't know what i'm thinkin' bout, really leaving with you."
:D
i shall never complain about boredom again.
life is better when it is mundane.
it's bleedin' cold again ):
silly english weather.
aiya, everytime i think of my econs test, my heart aches.
):
i made a hideous mistake.
grr.
i woke up today and my life was in shambles.
):
can't freakin sleep.
can't freakin eat.
feeling fuckin tired and gastric-ky.
argh.
okay, nevermind.
i hope this is just a phase.
):
oh clare, i need you.
ha ha ha.
i dont even know why i said that.
its not like you can actually help.
oh whee, 9 weeks to singapore.
i spent the whole morning writing out my to do list in singapore.
i cant wait (:
what else what else.
the other to are ogling westlife now.
i can hear the vids.
its getting damn cold again.
gah.
shit i really miss eating orange bowl.
was being reminded of it constantly while reading this murder book.
ah, i miss orange bowl.
i wish something could actually happen here so that i can actually blog about something substantial.
am fully sick of blogging about nothing.
bores me so much.
i have to stop saying fuck.
aha shit, i cant type properly here.
i bet its j's keyboard.
lousy keyboard.
so bored.
last night, we watched mars (:
ohh gawd. ling is so bleedin cute lahh.
and that whatshisname also.
oh yar, da ye.
its amazing that i woke up at 9 today :D
i am amazing!
we watched mars till 430 and talked till 5 plus.
ha ha ha.
i am immortal.
i need no sleep!
(:
j is giggling behind me.
v unsettling.
-glares at back.
oh.
and ive decided to seriously seduce her.
HA HA HA.
she is my woman.
(:
okay, this is making no sense.
am blogging for the sake of blogging.
but ya, the main point of this entry is that i am going to jio j (:
because she is right for me.
ha ha.
or actually, her house is.
ha ha ha.
i shouldnt say that.
ruin my chances.
j just called me a terrible woman.
):
but nevermind, she is still deeply in love with me anyway.
I KNOW SO.
ha ha.
ahhhh.
she just assured me of her love.
good.
she is mine for life.
-cackles.
damn cold.
ha ha ha, j is damn act macho.
everybody should laugh at her cos she's a cannot make it wannabe man.
i am more manly than her lah.
ha ha.
i bet charlotte will sneer at this.
actually, she probably wouldnt read this,
but ah well.
im only typing this to kill time before j decides to go somewhere.
haii, damn bored.
okay, i will go change first cos j wants to blog too.
shit, this is so odd sounding.
i tell you, j and i.
we are like, married.
ha ha ha.
HANDS OFF EVERYONE.
-beams.
backstreet rocks.
am listening to incomplete on jos's iPod.
(:
i like it.
it sounds different.
but the lyrics are still mainly same old backstreet.
(:
i love backstreet.
KTBSPA!
hee hee.
and i got back my depreciation test.
bleedin' 6 outta 50
brought me back to my time in stnicks when i'm taking back my math/amath/chemistry/physics papers.
and thinking it such lark that my results were so revoltingly abysmal.
except this time, i fail to see the humour in the situation.
ARGFF!
and there's another test soon.
in an hour's time.
i hope i pass.
):
my stats are really sad.
funny how it could just jump from an average of 40 to like, single digits even.
ho ho.
oh well, i find i don't much care anyways.
i mean, even i bore myself.
so everybody else is forgiven for forgoing my blog.
-beams.
shalala.
i'm feeling jolly and random now.
school feels more like holidays than holidays feel like holidays.
geddit?
ha ha.
it's wierd.
and it's official.
i. am. a. nerd.
oh -giggles.
what can i say?
I LOVE SCHOOL.
got unlimited internet, see?
:D
i was traumatised when j told me yesterday this v v undesirable girl (i describe her as such to clare: bigger than the titanic and much less beautiful) has people liking her.
because, why why why doesn't anyone like ME then?
oh.
then the ever sweet j decided to pretend to be deeply in love with me.
hee hee (:
so now i have a fake admirer.
not as good as the real thing, but hey, i'm desperate aren't i?
-laughs.
awh shucks, nobody is online.
i cannot spread my jolly-ism.
damn.
please will someone post some pictures so i can entertain myself for awhile?
aikes, and i find i suck at making conversation.
or keeping a conversation going with acquaintances.
baaaaad EQ.
now i know what my mom means when she tells me i am a sadistic anti-social psychopath.
(yes, she did really tell me that before. she also said i was satanic and in a cult because i painted my toenails black. my dear mommy)
now i know.
-nods grimly.
oh, i do feel mighty jolly!
and full of bubbles!
that is to say, bubbly.
:D
smile!
and the world smiles with you!
oh, i am random.
ah, i cannot stand it.
i am gurgling away with a mysterious hyperness.
it is worrying, no?
ha ha.
i don't care.
god, this is so aimless.
where is everybody?
(:
i want an iPod.
-sings.
am back in school.
YAY.
and i just saw j.
DOUBLE YAY.
and now i just need to see clare online to have a triple yay.
and phoon to call me to have a quadruple yay (or however you say four yays)
ah well, am talking to charlotte.
so that's a yay too.
ha ha.
am so fulla yays today.
this is a rubbish entry, this is.
i had another entry which got swallowed up.
in it, i wished eliza happy birthday.
it'll be belated wishes now.
ho ho.
eliza says she always reads my blog.
NOW, we shall see.
(:
OH -giggles.
charlotte is regaling me with funny anecdotes about school-life.
hee hee.
and my sister was on the phone with me for a damn long time yesterday.
for more than half the time, she was just playing songs for me.
all the chinese songs i miss.
and i suddenly realised that i actually know a lot of chinese songs.
and OOH, clare's come online.
there's my triple yay.
:D
and i seriously cannot cannot wait to go back to singapore.
but i'll only have like, 6 days before my sister goes back to school.
aw shucks.
and she'll be busy with the nats.
so i'll have to go find all my jc-going mates to play with me.
hmm, i wonder if xiangting is still in cj.
and the rest.
maybe i'll go there and see who of my mates are still there.
that is to say, if it's legal.
and i won't bump into brother paul.
i dont want to hide behind a piano again.
-grim.
oh, charlotte's got good taste.
i approve indeed.
ha ha.
just a thought.
happy belated birthday wishes to eliza!
ha ha, eliza says she always reads my blog.
.. we shall see now if she really does.
:D
god, am so bored.
am in the bleedin' library everyday.
but the fuckin' librarian just pissed me off real bad in the morn.
bloody white trash.
it's cold again.
fuckin english weather.
and i called phoon again today.
and she's not in again.
yesterday, she was out shopping with amy.
whoever amy is.
and today she's out to fix her hair with bri and clare.
her mom thought i needed to talk to her so bad.
she actually went," are you crying?"
surprised me, that did.
ah well.
im bored.
can't wait for july.
after years of being stoic even from hearing phoon's antics,
i have henceforth broken the trend.
yes folks,
i am thoroughly shocked.
phoon, call me, CALL ME!!!
:D
shit, i would give anything in the world to be in melbourne now.
so many things happening, and i'm not part of it.
i think i'm just about to go into a grand sulk.
why didn't i think of spending my easter at melbourne?
shit.
i feel cheated, i do.
oh my.
the entry of mine i thought went missing suddenly just appeared.
wow.
how did that happen?
i've given up waiting for you, clare.
i'm just gonna go for lunch.
waste my time lah, that clare.
im blogging again ):
i've got 19 minutes left on the comp, and clare still isnt online.
and here am i, waiting like patience on a monument.
so self-suffering.
i just remembered something.
did i mention that i'm damn sad?
that day, i was reading accounting, and i got so bored and depressed, i started clipping my fringe.
so there was i, mesmerized by my fringe and clipping a good two inches away for like, half an hour.
and by the time i came to my senses, my accounting book was covered with all my foolishly sacrificed hair.
):
and now my fringe is in a complete mess because it's too short to tie up and my incompetant hands actually clipped them off with a bleedin' nailclipper (which, to lessen the ew factor, i only just purchased from boots)
oh, and come to think of it, i clipped off a bit of my eyelashes too.
ARFFH!
i kill myself with my stupidity.
and to whoever who once upon a time told me that when you snip your eyelashes, you can see ghosts: FUCK YOU.
now whenever it starts to get dark, i get paranoid and start to think of that sammicheng show where her left eye sees ghosts.
and i have to control the urge to slap my hand permanently on my right eye,
and like, huddle on my bed and pray to the almighty god.
another stupid thing that ive got myself into.
i am so bored.
bloody clare.
last night, before i fell asleep, i had every intention to blog a long entry today.
now, i'm in no mood at all.
but i shall blog anyway since i'm waiting for clare to come online.
bloody it, clare.
come online!
so anyway.
watched phantom of th opera on monday.
it was bloody fantastic.
do think the phantom is very cool.
stage and props were like whoa, cool beans.
v v nice.
i may want to watch it again.
and ooh, do i see my sister going green over there?
-laughs.
after that, went to joceline's apartment to stay a night.
joceline's very nice.
(:
and i blogged an entry, but like the comp hung.
so to hell with it.
it was rubbish anyway, the entry.
was yabbering on about wanting to have an arranged marriage.
i know, now in broad daylight, it really seems quite ludicrous.
but then, sitting by the comp at night, it seemed perfectly natural to be cursing feminism and wondering why we couldnt go back to the happy era of arranged marriages.
and i was going on and on about being found a rich man's son and hence i wouldnt have to fret about finding someone to marry.
and like, by now, i should be married.
not bloody worrying about my accounting every bloody day.
mm, actually, come to think of it, i still want an arranged marriage.
ha ha ha.
and like, have an old prosperous-looking (ie. fat) woman tell my mother,"his father owns 7 banks and 4 jewellery shops. oh, and he also built the village school. good-looking boy too. next time your children will be white and fat. i promise you"
so then i'll be married off to he whose father owns banks and jewellery shops and i will have a chockful of fat and white children.
i dont exactly understand the chinese fixation with wanting everything (men, women, and everything in between) to be white and fat.
methinks white and fat sounds rather wierd.
like a tofu ball.
whatever a tofu ball is.
oh well.
where is clare??
anyway, i was thinking how i should really go back to singapore and like, pack my clothes here.
i had really planned to bring my stnicks PE tshirts to wear.
and i have none here.
and instead, all i have is a whole bunch of grotty cj PE tshirts.
so every bloody day, i wear those electric blue horrors to sleep.
they're quite comfy, i find.
but its quite funny cos i keep thinking of how the teachers were boasting about the whole new, amazing technology they had for the new PE tshirts.
like, eh?
bloody hell.
it's only dri-fit!
nike's been selling it for years.
ahh, and i hate the school name.
when my hostess very pleasantly asked me if i were a catholic, i almost choked on my pasta in shock.
very brilliant.
inferring i'm catholic from the tshirt of the school i went to for two weeks and absolutely detested.
ah well.
oh god, clare, where are you?!
i only have 33 minutes left on this bleedin' computer.
i should really start mugging really hard.
havent been doing much.
just dribs and drabs.
oh maaaaaaaan, i cant take this anymore.
chan wai man, you come online now!
i'm focusing on sending intense thought waves now.
-solemn.
ha ha ha.
whatever.
